Basically, you messed me up inside. I wish I could say I don't hate you for what you've done to me, I wish I could say I was the better person, But I can't. Nothing I do or say, no amount of words piled on top of the truth will change that. Lying only tricks the people who don't know the truth.
Your everything I hate about myself, when I see you, when I look into those cold eyes of yours. I feel disgusting, I feel absolutely horrid. I feel that overwhelming need to change, so I do. I cut my hair, I dye it, I run, I pump, I do everything humanly possible to be a different being. A better person. But no matter how much I change, until I'm good enough for you, I'll never change enough. What a horrible way to live one's life.
If I weren't me what would I say. If I were reading someone Else's words, hearing someone Else's problems, what would I say to them.
Your being stupid? Your perfect just the way you are? Why do you kill yourself over someone that doesn't give a shit? I don't know.
Is it even possible to take your own advice?
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